I LOVE MUSIC!!!! i love it more than anything ever except maybe my girlfriend. I LOVE ALL THE GENRES (except for country and chavvy shit) so i wanted to yap about it on here. its SO WEIRD that cds and vinyls and even like tape things are becoming popular again suddenly!! ive always loved physical media since i was little but recently ive been hoarding cds like a madman. I LOVE JUST LIKE putting a cd on and being like i OWN this music. like this is a genuine possesion of mine. i feel way more connected to it when i can feel it genuinely in my hands. and reading the little posters and thank-yous, putting up the artwork and noticing every little detail in the case. ive got a shelf full of my favorite albums, and its so gratifying when i look at it. like its my personality spilt out in front of me. every thought ive had engraved into such unique iridescent discs. in fact, i think i just love my room a LOT. it feels like my exact personality. its not "pinterest-worthy" but neither am i. its not perfect or tidy or organized but, again, neither am i!!!! lifes been super weird recently. i think for the first time ive genuinely had the opportunity to take control of my life, and in some ways i have. it feels like the actual start of me recovering from my insane depression. i thought to myself the other day something that wont get out of my head. "whats the point of being depressed?" i know it sounds SO stupid, but thats the first time it really clicked that depression wasnt the easy way out. so i guess im done being depressed now LOL. no im lying, i need to get myself back to being healthy. which is rich because im writing this at 1am....nevermind. but i think theres what im gonna end todays blog with! i love you whoevers reading this!!! talk tomoz :3 19.02.25